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Tweak says, "but i want an oompa loompa now"

Sally "FANTASTIC LEGS" Perks (perkypics) wrote,
@ 2011-05-02 20:25:00

013. 2 May, 2006
Warded ~~to Ollie~~ ~~Private~~ ~~to Ollie~~ Private (Ollie can read).

Eight years. Has it really been that long? Has it really only been that long?

I used to think maybe I should have stayed and fought, but then I remind myself that I've never been a duelist, I would have just gotten in the way. I probably would have ended up as one of the ones being remembered today.

I almost feel like I should just not say anything. Not draw attention to myself, let everyone else mourn in peace.

Jon was there. He was captured during the battle. He was one of the ones that everyone else was trying to fight. He might have been responsible for some of the dead. ~~He probably was.~~

And I never knew, not until after, when suddenly Arthur and Mike were being investigated, and Aurors were questioning us.

And his trial--

I hate this. Everyone else is remembering the fallen. The ones who fought and died. Everyone is toasting the heroes who bravely fought back and helped us win.

And I'm sitting here thinking about the fact that my brother, who used to be my best friend, was one of the bad guys. I hate this. ~~I hate him.~~

What right do I have to mourn Alison when my brother-

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I never saw what my brother was becoming, I'm sorry for all the hurt and pain and suffering that he and his friends caused to everyone in the wizarding world. I'm sorry that because of them, my best friend, who is like a sister to me, was locked up in Azkaban and then ran away to Australia once she was out.

I wish I could look at today as a happy day, a day of celebration. We won. You-Know-Who was defeated. ~~But I just can't~~

And I feel like I shouldn't be mourning the loss of my brother. He didn't die. He was a bad guy. But I still lost him, too.

Warded to Hannah.

I know you're in Bermuda with your husband, but how about some best-friend time when you get back, MRS. Hopkins?

Warded to Susie.

I'm going to kidnap you one evening soon and take you out to have fun. This is your chance to tell me which day would be best, and "oh, but no evening is really that good" isn't an excuse, I'll just pick one at random and kidnap you then.

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	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-03 02:04 am UTC (link)
	Of course, Sally. Is there anything I can do, from here? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-03 02:36 am UTC (link)
	Oh, no, it's okay. I just feel like it's been too long since I've spent some quality time with my best friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-03 02:50 am UTC (link)
	There's no such thing as enough time with your best friend, Sally! But yes, of course. The very moment I get back, I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-03 03:01 am UTC (link)
	Yay! Are you having fun in Bermuda? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-03 03:11 am UTC (link)
	I am! Even though I spent most of today inside the conference, of course, I still enjoyed myself. I'm glad that I don't have the pressure of presenting at one of the panels, so I can just attend them and learn for myself without the stress. And then my husband had arranged us a sunset dinner on the beach. Sweet Helga, how did I ever get so lucky, Sally? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-03 06:16 am UTC (link)
	Even with the conference, that still sounds fun. Then again, I think anything would sound fun in Bermuda. And that's just romantic. Wayne's stamp of approval has officially been renewed. And, well, I guess you just are lucky, but you absolutely deserve it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-03 01:49 pm UTC (link)
	~~Are you sure I-~~ I hope I do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-04 01:16 am UTC (link)
	I know you do. You deserve all the happiness in the world, Han. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-04 01:25 am UTC (link)
	Well not all of it- there needs to be enough for you, too! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-04 01:48 am UTC (link)
	Okay, I guess we can split all the world's happiness, then! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah palindromical 2011-05-04 01:48 am UTC (link)
	That sounds much better! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Hannah perkypics 2011-05-04 04:20 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure the rest of the world wouldn't mind. But we can always share some of that happiness. (Reply to this) (Parent)

Sally | Oliver

flyinghome
2011-05-03 02:12 am UTC (link)

Oh, love. I know it's probably something you've heard a hundred times over, but you can't blame yourself for your brother's actions. He, like you and me and everybody else, had his own choices to make. It isn't your fault that he chose as he did. Sure, you might have been able to change his mind. And he might have been able to change yours, to make you see things the way he did. Who knows?

I don't think there's anything wrong with mourning his loss, either. And I wish I could do more to help you, that I had the right words, but I don't. Just know that if there's anything I can do, love- if you need anything at all, you only have to ask.

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	Sally \| Oliver perkypics 2011-05-03 03:00 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. Really, for just-- for reading all of that ramble. It helps, I think, to write it all down. ~~And to know that you don't judge me for his actions~~ I just- it probably sounds silly, but it feels wrong, somehow, to be mourning a Death Eater today. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Oliver flyinghome 2011-05-03 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	You don't have to thank me for that. And I completely understand what you mean-- I think that sort of thing does help a lot to write down. I don't think it's ever wrong to mourn your brother. That's family, and family is important. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally \| Oliver perkypics 2011-05-04 01:46 am UTC (link)
	I do have to thank you, though. Because that's what you do when someone does something they don't have to, and because I am thankful for you, to have you in my life, and that my issues don't scare you away. ~~Family that killed people and felt no remorse over it. Family that was proud of murdering innocents~~ I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Sally/Susie bonesaboutit 2011-05-03 10:53 am UTC (link)
	~~But no evening is really that good!~~ Oh, all right. Better make it Thursday, no one wants to do any real work Friday mornings anyway. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Sally/Susie perkypics 2011-05-04 01:47 am UTC (link)
	Great! Then I will kidnap you on Thursday evening, we'll go out and have fun, and I promise to have you back home before your bedtime so that you're still bright-eyed and bushy-tailed for work on Friday. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally/Susie bonesaboutit 2011-05-04 01:52 am UTC (link)
	Sally, do you remember what time I like to go to bed? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally/Susie perkypics 2011-05-04 04:21 am UTC (link)
	Two am, right? I tease because I love you, Susie, remember that. Don't worry, you'll get your beauty sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally/Susie bonesaboutit 2011-05-04 11:30 am UTC (link)
	Sally! Pish. Beauty sleep, says Sally Anne Perks, world's loveliest woman. I'm content with brain-resting sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sally/Susie perkypics 2011-05-04 04:59 pm UTC (link)
	Surely you've got me confused with Hannah. And don't worry, we'll get you your brain-resting sleep, too. (Reply to this) (Parent)